The Reason I Breathe

You don’t understand

You cannot see.

The powerful hold

You have on me

Your touch alone

Is all I crave

But I can’t love you

From the grave

So I have decided

To forgo death

And I live for you

With every breath

Why

Why do I bother
Why do I try
To keep on breathing
When I want to die
Why do I struggle
Why resist
It would be easier
To slash my wrist
Why do I push
Why don’t I run
Chasing down
The setting sun
The answers are
Strange and new
My heart keeps beating
Because of you

So Alone

I’m so alone, on this Earth

Drowning in solitude, since my birth

People are known, for company shared

You left me here, you never cared

Alone I sit, planning my demise

No tears for me, because everyone dies

I’m not so special, I’m not unique

One of millions, another freak

In this sideshow, you call living

But unlike you, I am not forgiving

I hate my future, I run from my past

Until the time comes, I’m dead at last

Intimate Memories

My greatest intimacy
Is as simple as this
Surrendering my flesh
To a blades sweet kiss
Reveling in the pain
I more than deserve
These are the moments
I mentally preserve

Lonely

Have you ever been so lonely that you can actually hear your heart breaking? The sounds starts off as a low creak follow by the slightly louder almost whisper sound that eggshells make when they crack. Then finally the thunderous boom that echoes in your head as you heart shatters into a million pieces like fine china dropped on a hardwood floor. Followed by the silence again.. Oh how I hate the silence. 

Sea of Tears

Happiness is out of reach

Every day I do beseech

For earnest love and affection

Feeling only cold rejection

Wearing my heart on my sleeve

Making it simple to believe

That I am weak and undeserving

Worth no ones time or their serving

Make no mistake about my resolve

I am still growing and will evolve

Soft feelings change to anger swift

Cut my anchor be left adrift

Solitude on a sea of tears

Drowning alone in all my fears